Today's Rant: I'm Maxine Shawing This Life S*it

Maxine Shaw, Living Single (1994)

Choosing a career is always a tricky thing to pick. Am I making the right decision? Am I only picking this as a career for a momentary high, the status, pay check and perks or because my family said it's the best option to pick from. There are plethora of opportunities and careers to choose from. The problem is I have so many I want to explore. I love theatre, acting, showcasing my comedic theatrics on Tik Tok or anything that deals with creativity. Did you know I was going to school to be a fashion designer after high school? A wild ride I tell you.

"Life can change a lot but I'm finding my way back." - Nikki B

My issue: My career is taking over my life, exhausting me, and it's distressing me and my homegirls.

Like Maxine Shaw, I can be both fearless and confident yet scared at the same time.

In the corporate world, there's barely enough time for yourself, social outings, dating, venting about that one co-worker you just want to slap, or even just pausing for a moment.

Last week, I had a huge wake up call when I had COVID last week. My body went through it all from muscle weakness to not feeling like myself. God showed me that I needed to rest and reset. I couldn't believe it..but I kinda can lol. My stress was over the top, I was overworked and drained from my daily job and other responsibilities.

As I start coming back to myself, I'm realizing that I want my life to have meaning. Most of all, I want my joy and happy back. I want to dilly dally. Do things that excite me and not stress me. Thanks to me for adding magnesium and vitamin d to my lifestyle routine :)

As a child, they say "what do you want to be when you grow up?" Mainly we would say like a doctor, ballerina or a nurse. While those are good careers as a child, but when you get older, you're still asking the main question:

"What do I really want to be when I grow up?"

Maybe I don't know what my final career will be. Honestly, I don't even know what I'm eating for lunch but I want to choose things that bring me joy. Tapping back into hobbies I used to enjoy like screenwriting, writing short stories, creating video skits, getting back into dance, trying my first acting class while trying to book my first role. Hello, Abbott Elementary and Beyond the Gates.

Best believe, I don't know what God has in store for me, I trust the plan that he has for my life. Cheers to not knowing what next, but excited for what's to come.